Perfect

I am perfect, meaning what? we are always told to be the best we can, strive to be better.

We are told we have to do good in school, if we show any interest in sports or extra activities we have to work hard to be our best. We are told in order to be a success in this world we have to be smart and go to college right after we spend 12 years of our life in school we are pushed to continue right away,do not take a break you will fall behind. We are told we should know what we want to (be) and work towards that. We should take class after class,study and learn as much as we can. Then if we have trouble in math or our slant is not going (the right way) when writing or when our spelling is wrong or the way we write a sentence is not good enough, we are labeled. If we do not want to join a team or play an instrument,or do extra activities we are labeled. If as a child we are sitting alone playing and talking to our (imaginary friend) we are labeled and if we just don't want to (fit in) and are ok with being a lone we are labeled. Then as we grow up we continue to do all these things we are told we should do but we do not want to do, every time we do not achieve what others say we should be achieving we feel imperfect.

So we begin finding ways to numb ourself, we become addicted. drugs,alcohol, sex,and gambling are only a few, but we also have shopping, cleaning, judging(gossiping), swaring, working out, over educating, the internet, working, needing drama in our life, being sick all the time having children, and we become (compulsive,impulsive) people.

Just being is not enough,we always have to be doing, so the one day that we do stop,usually because we get sick, or fired,the fear sets in. We feel as if we have to be doing something,We cant just be, we are afraid of the emptiness within. When the medicating wears off the emptiness is still there. So a ask you to set in the emptiness, feel the emptiness, its only hard because you say it is, your mind believes anything you train it to believe, so feel the emptiness, and when it starts to get hard accept it and do it anyway. When you stop medicating and stay in your emptiness something amazing happens,you start to feel your true connection,the connection that you had when you came into this world, the feeling that you know that you are truly connected to something deeper than this, and for a brief moment you know that you are perfect.

one of many perfect beings

- Carrie Strull